Restore

1 Peter 5:10

And the God of all grace, who called you to his eternal glory in Christ, after you have suffered a little while, will himself restore you and make you strong, firm and steadfast.

Restoration has been a long process. I’ve seen dark days. I’ve also seen the son breakthrough and give me a reprieve. In the pit of the darkest part of my grief, I could not see the light at all. There were shadows, and I knew they had to come from somewhere. I couldn’t fathom happiness or content moments anymore.

Eventually, after time, prayer and lots of renewing and responding, I came out of the mire. I remember waking up one-morning feeling rested, relaxed almost. It felt good to be alive. It felt wonderful to have hope again. I smiled at my husband while he held my hand.

In the pit of grief, there have been things revealed to me which I was not prepared for. I’ve learned things about myself and the lesson had to come at this time. God has a plan, and it is for His Glory, not our comfort or understanding. I have come a long way, but still so far to go.

The passing of time astounds me in my grief. I cannot believe how many days have passed, how many months have moved by like a blur. I can count actual years now. It seems unbelievable in both my heart and mind. But I understand time is relative when you speak of the Father. He has his own timetable and his own way of keeping things. His ways are not ours.

I know ultimate restoration comes with my own moving into heaven. While I don’t believe any of us are really prepared for that, I like to think it will be the best day. Imagine the ultimate healing of my heart, soul, and body. What an amazing thing to look forward to.

Part of that is knowing the ones I have been grieving already have restoration and peace. This is part of the healing process for me, remembering God’s promises for my loves ones. Some of my own restoration comes with being faithful in his promise.

As I move forward toward I make sure I am still praying for renewal, acknowledging his response and focusing on ultimate restoral.

Renew.

Response.

Restore.

XOXO,